What is The Fitting Room?

I'm a long-time observer. I let scenes play out and enjoy watching how life interacts with each other. I often feel like I have a somewhat superpower-like ability to fade into the background. I've always believed I'm not a noticeable or main character; I may pull focus sometimes, but the story is never about me, and I loved that. I'm a great supporting character; I always support people and their wildest dreams and ideas, and I'll help them bring them to life. However, I haven't often felt the support or how I show up reciprocated. After graduating from college and ultimately leaving, feeling miserable after investing in the wrong people, places, and ideas, I've made a change time and time again. 

This blog has been an idea since the beginning of the year. Developing a concept, figuring out how to execute it, trying to bring ideas in my head to life without the resources I thought I needed, and even hating myself for not just going ahead and sending out whatever I had done. But I'm not that person. I don't do anything halfway, and I certainly don't give anyone an unfinished product. So, instead of forcing something to work, I put it away. I had a bit of an ego death and needed to reconnect with who I am and what I want to share, rather than getting lost in outside opinions, suggestions, and examples. I came back to myself, and with that came stopping overtly trying to take up space or force a life I had in my head. I let life take the lead, and I listened to my own desires. Through that, I reached a place of satisfaction with what I create and share.

People should be able to make a choice, and there is always a choice. You can choose whether or not to share those brutally "honest" opinions or participate in an activity that's seen as "cool" or "boring" and you have to be comfortable with whatever the outcome is so next time your friend doesn't want to do that activity with you, you do it by yourself or with another friend, you dont want to hear unnecessary opinions and comments about work, dont give any. You get what you put out in the world, and when you live a life true to you and your decisions, it's harder to be disappointed and live life angry at an unknown source. I used to function in that anger for a long time, and while it never entirely goes away and morphs into other emotions, there are ways to manage it. 

I choose to make myself the main character. I decided to write a story about myself and my life. If I want to try something, I'm going to take myself out and try it, and I will decide how I feel about it and tell that story. And I want to help others focus on their story, too. I've often felt invisible and hid behind others, but it's time to step out and get to know yourself! I'm excited for everyone to learn about me, and I learn about y'all as we go on this journey together. And again, I am trying, okay, not too much. 

P.S. Feel free to contact me through the email and Instagram linked below I would love to connect and welcome you to the community!!