Life Lately…
Since graduating and being home for the summer, I’ve been kind of on this journey of trying to figure out and reconnect with my interests, what I like, my passions. Especially now as I’ve been actively looking for a job and trying to decide what industry to join or initiate yourself into. I’m also one of those people where if I dont enjoy what I’m doing, I’m not going to do it. And maybe that’s bad…but why shouldn’t I enjoy what I do. Intentionality is important to not feel regretful.
At first, moving back home after college felt…sooooo weiirrddd. Everything was exactly how I left it and when I was 19. Bare walls, baby photos, old posters; I was literally teleported back into my teenage years. And with that unintentionally came some teenage behaviors. After some weeks of back and forth with family and some looking inward I realized that the teenage version of me is not the version I was to remain.
In college being in a new environment allowed me to create the life that I’ve always imagined for myself. Choosing my own decor, cooking my own food, and marching to the beat of the biggest drum in this bitch. MY OWN. So then it finally got through to me that if I want to live the life that I imagine and want as an adult I have to start acting like it.
I already can envision who I wanna be. Who I will be. And where I will be. (I know you do too) The question is how do we get there.
Apply a lil ‘fake it till you make it’ y’know!! I’m not saying whatever you're doing now reflects what you’ll do forever, but I think it provides some good experience for whatever you’ll end up doing that launches you to where you want to be.
Personally I love watching creators like Jackie Aina, Ari Johnson, Fatimah Bah, with such beautifully designed closets. My closet has not changed since the day we moved into this house over 10 years ago. It's actually like the way I have no art on my walls, broken shelves/furniture, stained rugs. Nothing in there that reflects who I am/want to become today.
Now I’m not rolling in doe okay so I decided to work on my closet first for right now. I went on pinterest chose a lil theme and went straight to amazon lol. Over the course of last month I ordered the most essential items for the closet. Hangers, bag holders, toiletry display trays, drawer organizers. And some accessory items, a small mirror, display lights, and a small rug.
If I do say so myself the closet came together nicely hehe. Completing it honestly gave me the confidence that I can create this life for myself. A closet that I imagined I could only create when I had my own space and got a job and became x type of person. Now I know it can only get bigger and better when I do become all of those things.
After gaining the confidence from creating a closet I love I decided to become more proactive seeing what else I could create for myself. Perhaps..a new identity gasp
So I created a vision board. I created a quarterly vision board of things I want to focus on for the next 3 months. I posted pictures and lists of my goals for the quarter and the month. I also created a theme of the month because I want to pace myself when learning about myself. Honing in on one attribute that I want to make better a month felt like a good idea for me.
For September the theme is Discipline. It's not about drilling in some dictionary definition or definition people give us, it’s about creating my own definition and working with that. So I started the month with a goal of implementing a solid morning/night routine and habits. Thus far doing this has been very helpful in stepping into this new identity.
I just literally implement the lifestyle that I want in the future,right now. I want to implement a monthly beauty maintenance routine with my nails, hair, face, etc. So I made those appointments!! Now life is worth living. Are you picking up what I’m putting down??
It’s not about doing it at a specific time every day or having it done by a certain time, it's about just doing it. JUST TRY!! And you get to learn about yourself. Like I now learned that I don't like this bubble bath pink on my nails, maybe I did in the moment but not anymore. But I paid for it. I can still rock it and now I can't wait till next month to try a different color. The fact that you’re following through and you’re actively completing or trying to complete the task, you are disciplined.
This is only the beginning. Through further practice, implementation and overall consistency any dream of mine and your can come true. The results you want may not come immediately but know that they will come. Have faith in yourself and your abilities to adapt, learn, empathize, inquire, and do anything you can to get what you want.
