The Spookiest Ghoul of All: The Monitoring Spirit
One thing I’ve been noticing recently is the rapid increase in monitoring spirits. Y’know, those that just constantly want to gather as much information on you as possible to later use it against you in conversation or spread manipulated versions of who you are to others to serve whatever narrative they have concocted in their head of you.
One thing about me is I DESPISEEEE a monitoring spirit, but thankfully, I got a real knack for pointing those suckers out. It’s almost like a sixth sense, hehehe. And it’s funny because they always reveal themselves in due time. It wasn’t always easy to point them out because they appear in various forms, but they all take the same actions.
WELCOME TO MONITORING SPIRITS 101!!
If you're anything like me, you march to the beat of your own drum. You don't need people telling you what you should do, where you should be, how you should wipe your ass; you trust and follow your own instincts completely because nobody knows you better than you. In a perfect world, everyone has the confidence to do that, but if you turned on the news lately, then you know it’s not. However, a monitoring spirit always thinks your world is.
Now, monitoring spirits aren't close to you. They aren’t people you instinctively feel comfortable with, talk with frequently, or actually care about you becoming the best version of yourself. They want to keep tabs on ‘competition’.
Personally, I’ve never had the competitive mindset unless I’m playing trivia. And I honestly believe everyone can win if they live their lives authentically to themselves. But silly me, I thought everyone wanted to live their own lives.
First, they probe you. Ohhh, don't they love to probe, poke, and prod. A lot of the time, they have a lot of access to you. They need closeness to gather information. So they watch where you go, what you wear, how you talk, how you act. All the info on you that they can get from just watching. And they’ll start there.
From here, they plant seeds and come up with gnarly conclusions for things you unintentionally introduced to them. Different outfit, you're weird. Different interests, you’re boring. Different haircuts, you’re crazy. But then there comes a point where the observations aren’t enough.
A monitoring spirit losing remote access is like living in a town with no data; you go into a Starbucks and start answering some questions to connect to some wifi. And God, don't monitoring spirits have questions.
When remote access is no longer an option to scratch that lurking itch, they become bold and will face you directly. Now there won't be or there will rarely be any pretext or ‘small talk’. They like to get down to the nitty-gritty immediately.
“ Hey, why did you do this?” Why are you going there?” “What are you going to do then?” They ask so many questions about who you are, what you do, and why you do it, but don't let the questions fool you because they don't actually care for the answer, let alone a true one. Remember, they have already come up with their own conclusions.
Now you might be like, “Girl, everyone asks questions. You’re reading too much into it.” WRONG. Not everyone asks useless questions. What I mean by useless questions is questions whose answers will objectively serve no value to the person who’s asking.
For example: “Hey, why’d you order that for dinner last night?” Now ask yourself: unless you ordered utter stank shit or fajitas at someone’s birthday dinner, wtf does what you eat for dinner have to do with them? And what answer could you possibly give that could change this person's life pertaining to that question?
Now imagine a series of questions just as useless coming your way. And the questions aren’t being asked because they like you or want to do something nice for you. They want to gather informationnnn.
After asking you a bunch of useless questions and feigning interest in your life, they proceed to the final and most detrimental phase, altering your reality. Let’s say you couldn't tell you were interacting with a demon at first; it happens to the best of us, and you share information about your life, who you are, and your hopes. A monitoring spirit will proceed to make you question all of that and fill your doubts with insecurities.
“I know you said you wanted to do that, but don't you think, insert insecurity.”
“That was cool what you did, but it would be so much better if you, insert insecurity.”
“If you really want to do well, then you need to stop, insert insecurity.”
Mind you, demons like those have not contributed to who you are, where you are, and what you will become. These are people who don't have any of their own business, so they mind yours. Misery loves company.
Monitoring spirits are never your equals; they may appear to be, but they are not. If they were, they wouldn’t concern themselves with watching so closely. They are looking to acquire something that you have, and more often than not, it's intangible. What they seek is not your money or your clothes, it’s your kindness, your strength, your joy, your spirit.
There is something in you that you may not recognize yet, but others do that makes you uniquely you and helps you move through the world. And it's always the very thing that they try to tear down inside you. What they criticize is your weapon, and only you can wield it. Find your Excalibur.
As I write this, I’m flooded with the various comments and criticisms I’ve gotten from those I did not make the right choice to be vulnerable with. I’ve had my honesty thrown in my face multiple times by those I thought I could trust because I mistook their inquisition for interest. I’m not saying close yourself, be open, and care for others. But look out for those who earnestly cheer you on rather than not.
And if you’re noticing that you might have some monitoring spirits in your midst, you know who to call 😏 (me ofc…just wanted to clarify)
